I was born into a good family, with no financial problems. In fact, my family once reached its peak of success.

But it didn’t last long. We fell hard. My father wasn’t good at managing money, and he became arrogant when he had everything. When we lost it all, there were no savings and honestly I was upset.

Luckily, by that time I had already finished my studies and started working. I ended up covering some debts, my sibling's education, and my family's daily needs.

Every paycheck, I shared with my family. Sometimes I felt angry, but at the same time I cared. From the beginning of my career until now, I have been carrying that responsibility. I couldn’t even save, since all my income went to support them. That’s why I started side hustles, and little by little, I was finally able to save.

But over time, I started to lose myself. I pushed too hard and took on three side hustles just to earn more. My greedy side came out, it wasn’t healthy at all.

I also became arrogant, careless about myself and the people around me. All I thought about was money, money, and more money.

At times, I felt burned out, very sensitive, and quick to anger. It didn’t feel like me anymore. Money had changed me.

There were times when I cried in the middle of the night, thinking about my future, wondering what would become of me if I kept spending my time and energy like this. I was afraid of where I would end up.

I realized I was heading down the wrong path. After reflecting many times, I thought I should live life calmly and enjoy it. I don’t need to be anxious about the future. I just need to enjoy life and not push myself too hard.

Now, I have managed to settle my family’s debts, and my sibling has finished their studies. I want to quit everything and take a break.

One by one, I have resigned from my job and quit from the side hustle jobs I took.

During my break, I want to travel around different cities in Indonesia. I have spent too much time chasing a never ending world, hahaha. At the same time, I will prepare to continue my master degree. Hopefully, no more obstacles come my way.

I still have savings if my family needs me.